Wednesday, July 15, 2009

craving community

So, being back home in chesapeake has been hard. I've struggled with the fact that almost all the people I know here, I know from my church. and yet, I don't feel like I'm engaging with anyone there. Everyone that goes there is either older, or younger and married with kids and so I feel like there are very few people that I could call peers.
So lately I've entertained the thought of going and looking at a new church. I want to find a church like the ones I read about in all these books where everyone is living in community and accountability and all that stuff. I have a hard time believing those churches really exist. I've never been to one. So how do I go about finding something like that? Is there any hope for finding one in Tidewater, Va? I don't know, I hope so.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

welcome to the real world

so these past weeks i've gotten a taste of what living in the real world will be like... waking up at 7, driving through traffic, 8+ hour work days, driving back through traffic. i start to understand why people out of college seem so burned out, it's exhausting.
and i'm finding it harder and harder to take time with God each day.
in college it was so easy because you made your own hours, i could set aside time for God so easily. now someone else makes the hours... and God wasn't in consideration when they were made.
maybe it's just personal discipline that i need to get up earlier, or devote time in the evenings.
it's just been a difficult adjustment.
and something else i'm struggling to find here in tidewater has been community. the community i had in blacksburg is something that i treasure a lot, and i know i'm not going to be able to replace it, but i've struggled to find any community here of people my own age.
i pray that i can start learning how to put God first in my schedule and that He would provide me with community here in chesapeake