Tuesday, January 12, 2010

taking the day off

I'm taking the day off of work today. Yesterday we submitted the drawings for the project I've been working on for the last 3+ months, the last 1+ months of which I've been working overtime on. The experience was pretty draining in a lot of ways. This was the first time in 5 years that I didn't just have a month off from mid December to mid January, and it was hard to not be able to hang out with friends or my sister home from school. Though it did make me value the time I did have with friends. Contrary to my personality, if I want to hang out with people, sometimes it has to be scheduled a week in advance.

anyways, I'm going to try and rest mentally and spiritually today. back to work tomorrow

Friday, January 1, 2010

what's next?

2009 had a lot of things happen in it. I finished my thesis, graduated college, moved home, looked for a job, found a job, looked for a new church and found a new church.

so what's next? I know this is a failing of our society, that we're rarely content where we are. We are always looking towards what's to come. But the reality is that I'm not happy where I am.

I'm not doing something I'm passionate about. Part of the problem is that I don't know what I'm passionate about. I'm not passionate about architecture, at least not architecture in the real world. The design-centered architecture of school seems a long way off from the cost-centered architecture of the real world. The last thing I really remember being excited about was the incarnational ministry I was a part of during GUPY. The principles of reconciliation, redistribution and relocation were all things I could get excited about. I just wish I knew how to bring the two together. Architecture and incarnational ministry. I wish I could find some sort of urban redevelopment organization, I wish I could be excited about the work I'm doing.

Hopefully 2010 will bring that, finding a passion that I can pursue, whether it's part of my vocation or something outside of it.